i thank whatever force in the universe that brought me to you.

1 month beb.
=)
ikaw ang dahilan. you make me smile, u make me laugh u make me feel so loved. u make me feel special and taken care of. u make me feel good. u make me feel like i dont need anything else so long as ive got you. u give me a certain assurance that whatever tomorrow brings youll be there. u give me a sense of purpose by letting me love you and give you what i have.
u make me the happiest girl in the world.

you know i love you soooo much! ang saya naman nito... parang walang problema na dadating sa atin. parang ngayon na lang ulit nangyari ang ganto sa buhay ko. salamat. gagawin natin ang lahat ng ating makakaya upang mapangalagaan natin ang napakasayang pagsasama na ito.. dba? =) bsta mahal kita. next time na kita gagawan ng madramang sulatin. kasi mahirap ang ganito. magkasama tayo at yakap kita.. nakakagulo ka mashado! ang sarap ng mga halik mo!! ikaw ay talagang para sa akin lang. k. uuwi nako. i love you tara rocha!!!!


-kiwi

ang sayaa.. =)

its saturday.
this week was fun.
I went rock climbing with nigel nung monday. holiday kc. tuesday, d2 natulog c madelle. kiwi came over rin. wednesday..kiwi came over and we got pizza at shakey's..at sabi ng makalumang personality tester dun, ako raw ay *hot stuff*. yes, with the asterisks and aLL. tapos nigel called and said na he was at tujunga..so i got him to pick up madel and they both came over. tapos thursday..may quiz ako na shit mukang nilagpak ko.. tangina. di ako makapagaral around friends kasi eh. hehehe! thursday..madelle was here kasi 3 days nga ung sleepover nya dahil wala ung dad ko..kiwi came, so did raffy. nakipagbet sakin si rapoy sa ending ng last samurai..and he lost, natch. raffy, raffy, raffy, u should know better than to play pustahan with me. so nilibre nya kame sa jack in the box..and buti nalang dahil lahat kme tag-gutom na nun. friday...madelle was still here..bumangon kme mga 2 na yata..cause we were up til 4..nagtatalk shit. hehe. kiwi came over and so did raffy with a lot of food from shakey's. hehe saya.
now that i think about it..parang nde in order ung mga pangyayari na un. pero nde ko lam kung kelan nangyare ung nagising ako ng alas cuatro tas nde makatulog so nagonline nalang ako and talked to markee. tas nakausap ko rin c elan. also nung thursday ata ung day na nde natupad ung wish ko. pero ok lang.. wala na kong magagawa dun. diba madelle? hehehe! saka inde ko rin alam kung kelan ung nagluto si madelle ng chicken at espada. tumatanda na ko. ang lungkot.

i changed the layout ulit cause the user's bandwidth exceeded. hehe.
so yeah
nung friday, i went to madelle's and brought the ps2 with me. grabe pamatay ung lakad uphill. my legs were killing me and i was out of breath by the time i got there. kiwi came over and we played tekken and i kicked his ass. yup thats exactly what happened and dont let anybody tell you any different.
then madelle kiwi and i went to bk to get an application form for madelle. then headed to kfc afterwards and got our food where manong joel was oh so generous to us. thanks to madelle's charisma of course. yiha. then..we went kila raffy and watched harold &kumar's sumthing to white castle. that was some funny shit.
sabado..dapat pupunta ko sa bball game nila raff kaso madelle wasnt going so i didnt go either cause kung ako lang mag-isa, nagmukha naman akong 'supportive gf' eh nde naman. i meant nde naman ako gf ng kung sino dun. so yeah natulog ako ulit tas i had this dream where my mom was gonna attack me or sumthin tapos i was calling my dad to wake me up. oh an this other dream wherein i was with my family and we were in a 'underground' resto with lots of celebrities. not only were they not serving food in the resto,but they were doing body painting on the tables. ...yeah. tapos after nun i called madelle and asked her if she wanted to accompany me sa galleria and she did so we went with louisa. tapos we went to maurizio's, ung sports bar sa harap ng manila buffet grill and watched tin's friend perform. this 'john vincent' guy who's supposedly guapo and all that. he's ait. i've seen better. hehe. but it reminded me of markee. pero talented si jv ah. hehe kala mo close eh no.. may petname na xa agad sakin. anyway, after ko magmakaawa, magbribe at ioffer ang aking kaluluwa kay kiwi, pumayag sila na ihatid kme nila madelle pauwi. hirap walang chikot. anyway hinatid namin si geny sa woodland hills, then tin dropped us off kila leo kung nasan sila raffy. from there me leo kiwi and raffy played pusoy dos. tapos tuloy tuloy na un..kain, kwentuhan, talk shit, barahan, kampihan, kodakan, at tawanan. dami naming nacover. saya nga eh. kaso pinagtulungan ako nung apat eh. hmf. :D we left there mga 4 sumthin. got home at 5. online pako chempre. talked to kiwi a bit tas surrender na rin ako. when i woke up kanina, ang dami kong panaginip about ung mga pinagusapan namin kila leo. komedi nga eh subalit nde ko na sasabihin dito pero it was about you know who. anyway. i have plans to go rock climbin tomorrow. sweet. sana maaraw bukas.

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nakatulog ako d2 sa lib. i missed both my classes. usually nakakatulog ako during my class..pero shiit.. nasayang lang pagpasok ko. and i missed both my classes!!!

pero at lis nakagamit ako ng computer.. hehe. tangina..its been what? ..2 days and forever since my hands last touched a keyboard.

anyway.
thursday was fun. went shopping with jayv up in northridge. didnt realize we had so much in common. madelle picked me up at my house at about 1am in her pajamas. we were both bored. so we stopped at the gas station, bought some chips and spent $2 for gas. hehe. seriously. then ryan came over, brought some food with him too. i fell asleep around 5am.

friday. woke up around 2pm. i was still sleepy but my back hurt like a mother. we vegged out, mostly. geny was ol so i aksd her if she wanted to watch the incredibles. after some convincing and much peskering on the part of milly, geny gave in. so I, madelle, geny, louisa and milly watched it sa la crescenta...

hmhmhm. that moviehouse brought back some memories..with a certain boy who lived not too far from there..

after the movie, pnta kila geny. inuman! hehe
actually solve na ko nung nanonood kme nung you've got a friend saka viva la bam. then raffy came with a bottle of hennessy. hinatid namin si louisa and got my shit out of madelle's house..oh and bought some chili cheese fries at tommy's too. pagbalik namin nandun na si kiwi leo at brian. then dumating rin si ryan raymond at someone. ayun, tanggera si geny. saya. :D ok pla ung crowd nila raffy. i mean, nakasama ko na cla once,.. twice.. or three times pa nga yata before pero i never mingled much less talk to them. so yea, theyre alright.
masaya yung inuman. tama lang na kme kme lng ung nandun. may ilang taong tinabla..pero its all good. :D marami namang lakad eh. nde kelangang magkakasama lahat all the time. you with me on this?

lapit na umalis si abai. sagarin na natin, araw arawin, todo na itech!

Sa hirap maghanap ng trabaho sa panahon ngayon, pati pag se-salesman ng vacuum cleaner ay pinasok ko na. Minsan, pumunta ako sa isang bahay sa isang barangay. Kumatok ako sa pinto, isang malaking misis ang nagbukas sa akin. Pero bago pa nakapagsalita ang babae, inunahan ko sya. Mabilis akong pumasok papunta sa sala nila para di na makatanggi sa presentation ko. Katulad ng utos ng boss ko, binuksan ko ang isang plastic bag ng sm at ibinuhos lahat ng lamang tae ng kalabaw sa carpet. This was a technique taught to me in selling to get a massive and immediate attention from the buyer.

Sabi ko sa kanya w/ confidence: "Misis, pag di
nalinis ng vacuum cleaner ko NGAYON ang mga
tae sa carpet niyo, kakainin ko isa-isa yan!",
ang mayabang na sinambit ko.

"Gusto mo ng ketsup para diyan?", tanong ng babae.

Sabi ko, "Bakit po?"

"Eh, kalilipat lang namin. wala pa kaming kuryente."

The more things change, the more they stay the same. I'm not sure who the first person was who said that. Probably Shakespeare. Or maybe Sting. But at the moment, it's the sentence that best explains my tragic flaw: my inability to change.

I don't think I'm alone in this. The more I get to know other people, the more I realize it's kind of everyone's flaw. Staying exactly the same for as long as possible, standing perfectly still... It feels better somehow. And if you are suffering, at least the pain is familiar. Because if you took that leap of faith, went outside the box, did something unexpected... Who knows what other pain might be waiting out there. Chances are it could be even worse.

So you maintain the status quo. Choose the road already traveled and it doesn't seem that bad. Not as far as flaws go. You're not a drug addict. You're not killing anyone... Except maybe yourself a little.

When we finally do change, I don't think it happens like an earthquake or an explosion, where all of a sudden we're like this different person. I think it's smaller than that. The kind of thing most people wouldn't even notice unless they looked at us really, really close. Which, thank God, they never do. But you notice it. Inside you that change feels like a world of difference. And you hope this is it. This is the person you get to be forever... that you'll never have to change again.
~Ephram Brown