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i thought i was over him..

i sort of knew about it but decided to ignore it. after all, things were going great between us. she wasn't a threat. she was my friend. the night progressed and he was all over the other girls yet again. i was used to it by now.. but that doesn't mean i'm ok with it. i just turned the other cheek.. i stopped getting jealous whenever he did that.. he was always acted that way anyway. sabi nga ng katropa naming isa dati, 'bat ka magseselos? kayo ba?' aray. anyway. throughout the night, narerealize ko na nde ko talaga xa gusto na. but i still made out with him.. i was hesistant though. tas the succeeding times na he wanted to have another go at it, di ko na xa pinatulan. tinarayan ko na nga xa actually eh. the day after, i was still acting cold towards him. kasi talagang nawala ung attraction eh. i didnt even care when he flirted with my friend sa harap ko. and i was starting to question what i liked about him in the first place. that same day was the last time i talked to him. sometimes i thought about him.. missed him even. but the rest of the time i didnt. i was relieved na i was finally getting over him. cause i knew na things between us weren't really going anywhere, it was a dead end relationship. in fact, calling what we had a 'relationship' is quite a stretch. today i found out na he and my girl friend have been in touch more than the usual. 'minu-minutong nagtatawagan' was what my ears called it. and everything just fell into place. the things my girl friend used to tell me about this guy she was having problems with.. they were about him. the actions of the guy were mainly what bothered me the most. pero now, i just can't believe na after all the things i confided sa friend ko na un.. siya pala ang may tinatago sakin. about pa dun sa same guy. e kinukwento ko pa naman sa kanya ung mga problema, mga development, at kalokohan namin nung guy na un. haaay. nakaka aning ha. i'm not angry. i'm just frustrated.

*update* haha. paka drama. i bounced back within 5 days. lol